Unplugged

Today was labor day. I didn't do much out of the ordinary. Usually labor day is a time to fire up the pit, enjoy family and relax. Yet, I did not do much of that. Well, except for the relaxing. I cut off my cell phone today. I just did not want to really talk to anyone. I met with my pastor this morning. It was a good meeting. He challenged me in some areas that I have been struggling with. We talked a bit about my divorce and life afterwards, family issues and things like that. After that I went and washed some clothes. I need a washing machine and dryer. Afterwards, I was supposed to take my daughter to the movies but the rain kept us at home. I then laid down for a much needed nap. I then had to go to school tonight. My ex-wife called me at home but I was not home when she called. I still have not talked to her. As much as I miss her I thought it was about time that she missed me for a change. It was okay because I usually talk to her daily but I think its about time that we really leave each other alone to really get on our lives. I still want to be with her but I think that our dynamics and the relationship in its present state is preventing the both of us from really deciding what we both want. She talks about the "miracle" that we might get back together but its time to really see if that miracle is possible. Its not like I wont talk to her but I know that people do not miss their well until it runs dry. Today I decided to unplug from the world for a hot second. Tommorow brings a new day, so I will see what is up with that. I expect I will hear from her in the morning. I will answer if called and oblige accordingly. Sometimes you just need to get away so people will know your importance to them. She left a message complaining and asking why havent I called. She asked if I changed my number. Which I hadn't. I just simply cut of the phone. Communication is so important but the lack of communication sometimes is better.